1 more paper to go!!

at last.. i've got the free time that i've been craving for weeks!! hehe.. i had to answer 3 killer-papers in a row a few days ago!! and i hardly had enough sleep!! hehe.. served me, right!! who asked me to do study on the last minute!! hehe.. oh well, it goes with the saying, "old habits die hard".. ah, i dun care about that anymore.. i've got to prepare myself for the incoming paper!! it will be my last paper for this semester.. hehe.. can't wait to face the new chapter of my UPSI life.. hehe..

mentioning about 'next semester', i just had a chit chat with one of my seniors.. she said that almost all papers that she and her classmates take this semester are KILLING them!! gosh!! that really gives me a first-degree-heart-attack!! darn!! how on earth am i going to graduate with cgpa above 3.7?? i do like this program very much.. but then, i didn't expect it to be this hard!! dush2!! i just hope that i can face this 'torment' with ease!! haha.. ok then, i've got to perform my Maghrib prayer.. till then~~ =)

23 years old!!

hwarghh... i just can't believe that i'm already 23!! hehe.. the time really flies!! hehe.. i can't really remember when was the last time i celebrated my birthday.. haha.. normally, my birthday will not be celebrated.. hehe.. but that's ok.. i'm not a person who NEEDS to celebrate his birthday.. hehe.. a simple wish will do.. hehe.. and i'm glad that most of my friends are not forgetting this big day of mine.. hehe.. thanks to FACEBOOK, most of them are being notified 3days earlier.. haha..

present?? nahh~~ it's ok for me if i don't get any.. but if i do, that will be a big bonus for me.. hehe.. luckily, i've a few important people around me.. even though i didn't ask for any present, it seems like it's a must for them to do so.. hehe.. who else?? my parents and 'HER' of course!! haha.. usually, if i were to be distant from my parents, they will send me some extra pocket money.. hehe.. and as for 'HER', 'SHE' will try to give me something which is totally different from other couples.. hehe.. last year, 'SHE' gave me 1 stylo-t-shirt which i like!! hehe.. and for my shock, 'SHE' said that it was chosen by ummi (HER mother)!! hehe.. but that was last year, this year, 'SHE' gave me 1 motivational book entitled "Membina Unngul Lelaki".. hehe.. it seems like 'SHE' wants me to be motivated all the time.. hehe.. and you know what? i also did the same.. hehe.. 'SHE' asked for a motivational book for 'HER' past birthday and during her convocation!! hehe.. and luckily, 'SHE' likes them very much!! hehe..

not only that, 'SHE' even prepares me 1 surprise!! haha.. and that really touches me!! 'SHE' did something on our picture and post it on 'HER' blog.. i managed to copy 'HER' masterpiece.. and here it is..



- i just want to say that i'm really thankful to have 'YOU' by my side, my dear.. i love everything that 'YOU' do.. thanks again for always being there for me..

Tiresome Friday Morning

hwarghh!! for the first time of my campus life, i've played 8 sets of volleyball!! haha.. just imagine how my body reacted to those circumstances!! haha.. i'm damn-tired!! not mentioning playing 8 sets without drinking a single drop of water!! haha.. what a good 'preparation' for the incoming final examination!! haha.. like i mentioned in one of my previous posts, i've started to love this sports!! hehe.. i can't recall when was the last time i played futsal, soccer, table-tennis, as well as tennis.. hehe.. it seems like volleyball has been my priority in the standings of sports that i like.. hehe.. and guess what? we (my friends and I) started to play volleyball as early as 7.45am!! hehe.. initially, it was supposed to start at 7am.. but some of us were having trouble in waking up early in the morning!! haha.. what a day!!


- my examination will start on 2nd of November until 18th of November 2009.. and then, let's party!! haha.. actually i'm looking forward to go back to my hometown.. hehe.. i've got unfinished businesses!! hehe.. till then!! chau sin chi!! ;P

-=- D A T I N G + T R I P + D A T I N G A G A I N -=-

i was supposed to write this earlier.. hehe.. but it's ok.. i'll just write everything now.. hehe..


(Saturday, 24th October 2009)
It was one of the unforgettable moments of my life.. it was the first time for me going to the 'Zoo Melaka'.. hehe.. but that was not the highlight of that day.. hehe.. you know what?? that was the first time i went for dating (with 'HER' of course!!) outside Johore!! hehe.. normally, we will just date around the town of JB and sometimes in Pontian.. hehe.. but this time, 'SHE' requested to go to the 'Zoo Melaka'.. and i agreed!! hehe.. some couples may find it awkward to date at the zoo.. but not for us.. hehe.. it appears that both of us share the same interest!! hehe..



we started our dating-journey at about 7.45am.. hehe.. quite early huh?? hehe.. it's to make sure that we arrive there before noon.. if we were to arrive there at noon, the weather might be too hot to bear.. hehe.. we arrived there at about 10am.. since it was already 10am, we have expected how the weather will be.. so, we decided to bring along one umbrella.. luckily 'SHE' has one in 'HER' car.. hehe.. i don't think i should describe the animals that i saw there.. use your imagination.. hehe.. the most important thing was, i had such a great time with 'HER'.. hehe..

then, at about 3pm, we went to one of the most entertaining places in Melacca.. it's Melacca's version of 'Eye of Malaysia'.. hehe.. since i haven't been to Taman Tasek Titiwangsa's 'Eye of Malaysia', that was the biggest merry-go-round that i've ever rode.. hehe.. initially, we thought that we have to pay rm20 per ride.. but then, after showing our mycard, the price was reduced 50%!! hehe.. so, we paid only rm10!! hehe.. and you know what?? we had 5 rounds of that merry-go-round!! haha.. it's like rm2 for a single loop!! hehe.. adding icing to the cake, i rode that merry-go-round thing with 'HER'!! hehe..



after that, we went to one of Melacca's well-developed place which i fotgot its name.. hehe.. but i can describe that place as a one-storey-shopping complex.. hehe.. we went for a walk before we headed to the nearest McD.. we had our 'lunch'.. hehe.. before that, we only had a few sandwiches.. hehe.. at about 6.15pm, we decided to head back to JB.. i really-really-really had a great time there with 'HER'.. what a day!! ;)


(Sunday, 25th October 2009)
Guess what?? i met 'HER' again.. hehe.. this time, i helped 'HER' to look for a house to be rented.. 'SHE' is being posted to one of the schools situated in Pasir Gudang.. it's a new school.. 'SHE' can be considered as one of the premier teachers there.. hehe.. i'm happy and proud of 'HER'.. i would love to be like 'HER' one day.. and i'm on the perfect route now.. Alhamdulillah.. then, after almost 2hours of searching for rent-house, we got tired.. 'SHE' asked whether i'd like to watch movie with 'HER'.. of couse i would!! hehe.. so, we went to Jusco Tebrau City.. a few hours later, we went to Bestmart to have ABC.. hehe.. actually, 'SHE' craved for that ABC on the day before.. hehe.. since 'SHE' has asked earlier, i planned to have it together with her today.. hehe.. i love to see 'HER' smiles.. hehe.. that's why i'm willing to do anything just to ensure that 'SHE' is happy.. hehe..



- today is the first day of 'HER' as a full-time teacher.. am really proud of 'HER'!! hehe.. i would love to see 'HER' again.. hehe.. even though i spent 2 days in a row with 'HER', it seems that i've already started to miss 'HER'.. hehe.. especially 'HER' voice and smile.. hehe.. and to whom it may concern, i just wanted to tell you that I REALLY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, MY BELOVED NOR SHAFIZA.. till then..

- Credit to my dear -

~ Falling for You ~

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you

p/s: action speaks louder than words..

~Job Done!!~

wehee!! at last!! i've completed all assignments for this semester!! haha.. which means, i don't have to do anything that is related to TYPING + PRINTING + BINDING!! haha.. fuh~ just look at the length of days since the last time i posted something.. haha.. actually, i wanted to post something at least once every 2-3days.. but then, it seemed like the time didn't permit me to do so.. hehe.. what else?? ASSIGNMENTS dude!! i hardly had enough sleep.. just for the sake of finishing my assignments before the dateline.. hehe.. all assignments are needed to be handed-in by today!! hehe.. just imagine that i have to finish 4 assignments this week itself!! hehe.. served me right!! why did i keep on doing things on the last minute?? hehe.. like the saying, "old habit dies hard.."!! hehe..



there are loads of things to be said here.. but 1st thing 1st.. i've got to rewind my mind recorder 1st.. hehe.. on 5th October 2009, i had to say buh-bye to my previous hairstyle.. hehe.. after weeks and months of thinking and making decision, i've decided to cut my hair short.. very-very short.. hehe.. just look at the picture that i've uploaded above.. hehe.. it maybe temporary and it maybe forever.. hehe.. only the time will tell.. hehe..

lately, i began to love the volleyball.. but that doesn't mean that i am no longer in-love with football, futsal, and tennis.. it is just an addition to the sports that i love.. hehe.. i'll play this type of sports almost everyday in the evening!! i will NOT play this sports ONLY if i have a class to attend to or when it is raining.. hehe..

a few weeks from now, my final examination for this semester will start.. and i have to prepare myself mentally and physically since it is still early (being a professional teacher).. i've got plenty of times to be ready!! but i am not going to waste a single time of mine.. like i used to say, i need to prove to many people.. especially to my parents, former teachers, lecturers, and not forgetting, 'her'.. i'm a man of my words.. when i say i want to do it, i'll do it!! InsyaAllah..

hurm, talking about 'her', 'she' has just gotten the opportunity to teach in Johor.. Alhamdulillah.. at least, i don't have to save a lot of money just to buy ticket to visit 'her' in Sabah or Sarawak (if 'she' were to be posted there).. hehe.. right now, 'she' has to wait until the 26th October 2009 to know the exact place for 'her' to teach.. hopefully 'she' will get either in JB or pontian.. hehe.. that will make it easier for me to visit 'her'.. hehe.. Amin... hurm.. so much for today.. i'll be posting some other things later.. till then...



p/s: i'm kind of missing everybody.. EVERYBODY.. ;)

SYAWAL

i was supposed to write this on the 1st day of Hari Raya.. but it seemed that time didn't permit me to do so.. so here it is.. Alhamdulillah.. the moment that all Muslims are craving and waiting for is here!! it's the month of Syawal.. each and every Muslim (especially Malaysian) has his or her own way of viewing the Syawal eve.. the younger ones will definitely be thinking of the 'duit raya'.. hehe.. and some older ones too.. haha.. but as for me, Syawal is about meeting all the love ones.. when i say all, i mean ALL.. hehe..

That morning (1st syawal), i went to the nearest mosque to perform the 'Solat Sunat Aidilfitri' along with my other family members.. with other BIG FAMILY MEMBERS.. hehe.. then we had breakfast together.. about 2 hours later, all of us assembled at the main hall of my house.. it was the time for everybody to ask the forgiveness from the elderly.. as for my family, our 'Toksu' is considered as the most eldest family member present.. we have lost our most respected 'MAK' and 'AYAH'.. they were my grandmother and grandfather.. all my siblings as well as my cousin entitled them with 'AYAH' and 'MAK' even though they were our late grandmother and grandfather.. all of us hugged and kissed Toksu.. and we can feel that she's crying.. hurm.. i guess that was the first time for her to be treated like that.. after all, she's the youngest grandmother that we have.. it's a very long story..

the following 2 days later, i went out with 'HER'.. we went to the cinema in Jusco Tebrau.. hehe.. actually, i have requested many times to watch any movie with 'HER'.. hehe.. i guessed that time 'SHE' agreed at last to do so.. hehe.. we watch 'The Ugly Truth'.. it was such a nice movie!! i like it very much.. the genre for that movie is Love+Humour.. even though there were a little bit of not-so-nice-scenes, it's still viewable by people of any ages.. hehe.. that evening, we went to Danga Bay to enjoy the sight seeing.. we ate Dunkin Doughnuts together.. it was a very memorable day for us..

a few days later, my family and i went to shah alam n klang to visit other BIG FAMILY members.. we went there for 3days.. we visited Mamak, Opah, Cik-Gi (abah's brother), and Pak Lang (abah's brother).. then we went back to JB on that Saturday morning.. Alhamdulillah the highway was indeed CLEAR!! haha.. i can even drive 150km/h without mama noticing!! haha.. no wonder we reached JB within 3 hours from Shah Alam.. haha.. shh!!! don't tell mama.. hehe.. then i went to 'HER' house to visit 'HER' family.. they were very nice to me.. no wonder i respect them so much!! hehe.. after all, they are 'HER' parent.. hehe.. on top of everything, there was one incident that caught my mind as well as my sight.. it was 'HER'.. 'SHE' was very gorgeous and stunning!! i haven't seen 'HER' dressed-up like that before.. i will never ever forget that moment.. even though i didn't manage to get 'HER' picture, i will remember that moment forever.. one day, i'll get the opportunity to experience that moment again and again.. hehe.. if u get what i mean.. hehe..

and now, here i am in UPSI finishing a lot of assignments given by the lecturers.. haha.. but it's ok.. i can manage to finish them on time.. hehe.. i can call it as a pay-back time!! haha.. u gave us a lot of tasks, right?? haha.. and now, u have to mark them!! haha.. it's a win-win situation then.. but i guess the pressure is with the lecturers.. haha.. they have to submit everything to the dean and upload the marks.. haha.. now see who's laughing.. haha.. that's all for now.. till then.. ;)

~ So Close~

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

p/s: to whom it may concern, thanks for always being there for me.. You're my everything.. You're the best gift given to me by The Al-Mighty..

09 09 09

hurm.. again.. i've skipped quite a number of days of updating my blog.. initially, i would like to post something at least once in 2-3days.. and now, it appears that i've skipped almost 3weeks!! that's why i don't think that i'm able to write a diary!! hehe.. but then again, that doesn't mean that i'm going to abandon this blog of mine.. hehe.. it just that i'm going to be needed some time in order for me to be constantly updating this blog.. hehe..

on the last 29th August 2009, i had the opportunity to have my sahur together with 'her'.. hehe.. that was the first time in my life, i had the opportunity to do so with someone else.. hehe.. and i'm very-very-very happy with that achievement!! hehe.. besides that, i also had the opportunity to watch my favourite team in action!! duh, that will definitely be Arsenal FC!! hehe.. initially, i don't think that 'she' would like to watch football with me since 'she' doesn't like to watch football very much.. 'she' always says that 'she' is only supporting the winning team.. but like it or not, 'she' will be starting to love Arsenal from now on.. hehe.. i would like to 'Arsenalise' her.. hehe.. that night before we had our sahur together, we watched the game between Arsenal and MU (a.k.a MAN-URE).. sadly, Arsenal lost that match.. but what made me becoming more frustrated is that, Arsenal shouldn't have lost that match!! Arsenal were dominating the game.. and MU were given unintentionally-easy-goal!! huhu!! d*mn!! too bad that it was the first time 'she' watched football with me.. and watching Arsenal lost.. huhu.. but that's football.. and i'm a great fan of Arsenal.. and i will always be behind them no matter what!!

and the following day (30th August 2009) was a memorable day for me.. hehe.. that was the day where i were given the opportunity to 'express something' towards 'her'.. hehe.. i'm going to keep that for myself and 'her'.. hehe.. that's all for the time being.. hope that i will be able to have a lot of free time updating my blog.. hehe.. till then..



p/s: today's date is kind of unique tho.. 09 09 09 ;)

Her convocation.. ;)

17th August 2009 was the unforgettable moment for a sweet young lady named Nor Shafiza Bt Supardi.. it was her graduation day.. everything that she had sacrificed and fight for, is paid.. her smile and happiness speak for herself.. she's now a soon-to-be-teacher.. she's now waiting for the day where she's being posted.. hopefully she will be posted to the place where she has been hoping to be at.. i just hope that she is not going to be posted to the areas where i couldn't reach her InsyaAllah.. that will be pretty hard for her tho.. after all, she loves her family very much.. and she loves to be with them for most of the time.. especially with her sister, angah.. they are just like best-best-best-friends ever.. even though they are sisters, that doesn't mean that they can't be best friends.. i really admired how they interact with one another.. their bonding are great!! that's how sisters should be..

but there's something which make me depressed a lot.. i couldn't attend her big day!! thanks to this d*mn H1N1.. my holiday was pulled earlier.. initially, my mid-term break was on the same day as her convocation.. suddenly, it's being held earlier!! huhu.. i felt like escaping from monday's and tuesday's classes.. huhu.. i really2 wanted to be at her convocation badly!! hwaa!! i'd love to take photos with her!! i really2 wanted to by her side that day!! i wanted to see her happiness and excitement!! even though she has sent me some photos of her on that day, i still couldn't take it!! huhuhu!! everytime i see her convocations pictures, i will definitely be happy as well as depressed!! huhu.. on top of everything, i'm very3 proud of her success.. not only she has graduated, she even graduated as a dean's list student!! and she's a chemist teacher!!

now she's doing her master.. and hopefully, i will be able to attend her bigger convocation.. hopefully that day is not going to be on the day where i'll be having important occasions.. if let say i'll be having class on that day, i'll definitely escape from that class!! haha.. i don't care and i won't care!! hehe.. what i want to do is, i want to be by her side on that day.. i want to share every feeling and emotion of hers.. together.. till then..



- i'm very proud of u, my dearest Nor Shafiza Bt Supardi.. aishiteruyo~~

aku, 'dia', dan perodua kancil...

Dh lme giller xtulis kt sinih.. agak busy laa sebenarnyer.. nk ol pon jap2 je haa.. klo de mase pon, digunekan utk berehat2 or top-up blek tido yg terabai.. hehe.. dipendekkan cite.. 3hari lepas (13th August 2009), merupekan hari yg xbpe nk best buat aku.. huhu.. kete kancil kesayangan aku tuh tibe2 xdapat nk idupkan enjin!! huhu.. xtau laa npe.. lngsung x menyala lmpu kt ignition tuh.. huhu.. giller glabah akuh.. bukak lampu pon xdapat.. trus aku rase cm xbest.. huhu.. aku pon try laa wat jump-start kt kete member.. xdapat gak.. hwaa!! pe yg telah berlaku!! giller aku time tuh.. ilang trus mood aku!! padahal sok nye ade kelas pengurusan ko-kurikulum.. huhu.. soknye, pg2 jumaat(14th August) tuh aku pon dok cari laa pomen serate tg malim tuh.. kebanyakan tmpt tutup.. last2, terjumpe satu pomen india nih.. xkesah laa.. janji bole idopkn kete aku.. aku gih sane tumpang moto classmate.. kebetulan die xde gih mane.. dh smpi je kt pomen tuh, aku pon cite laa itu ini sumer psl pe yg jd.. last2, die stuju nk dtg kt hostel akuh.. die nk try wt jump-start.. smpi je kt kete aku, aku pon try laa wt jump-start tuh.. skali menjadi!! dgn happy nye aku pon tekan laa paddle minyak tuh 3-4 kali.. wah!! dgr je bunyi enjin tuh, tersenyum akuh!! hehe.. aku pon trus laa dok panaskan enjin pusing2 hostel jap.. lepas solat jumaat tuh lk, aku pon gih jln2 lg.. this time aku gih pusing2 luar hostel lak.. sje try jln jauh sket cmne.. motif sebenar aku nk cas batt kete tuh.. so, kne laa bg enjin tuh bergerak sket..

tp disebalik kejadian 13th august tuh, de kejadian yg agak manis buat diri akuh.. beselaa, klo aku tgh down giler, musti aku mau cite ngn 'dia'.. aku pon btau laa 'dia' itu ini.. ngadu laa kirenyer.. hehe.. nk mnje2 laa gak.. wakaka.. dh lme xjmpe laa.. hehe.. skali, rupenye2 'dia' de menyediekan kejutan buat akuh.. sungguh aku xsangke, 'dia' sudi edit2 pic2 aku.. pstuh post dlm blog 'dia'.. huhu.. terharu giler aku.. bukan mudah utk 'dia' seolah2 expose kn aku kt public.. giler terharu laa gk aku time tuh.. xtau aku nk kate pe time tuh.. cntik tuh toksah cite laa.. mmg berseni giller tgn 'dia'.. mmg abes tersenyum aku time tuh.. senyum terharu, beb!! huhu.. sungguh x sangke.. sebab tuh laa byk kali aku mention yg 'dia' sgt2 istimewa pd aku.. 'dia' ade je cara n jalan utk bg aku happy2 n ceria.. 'dia' slalu ckp yg 'dia' xde wat pape pon.. 'dia' act bese2 je.. tp 'dia' punya bese2 tuh laa yg mnjadi luar bese.. bayangkn laa cm contoh, aku tgh down cmne skali pon, bad mood cmne skali pon, marah n hangin satu bdn cmne skali pon, nmpak je muka 'dia', senyuman 'dia', sore 'dia', gelak tawa 'dia' tuh sumer dh bole wat aku ilang sumer unsur2 tuh dlm diri aku.. cmtuh je lk tuh!! cm 'dia' seolah2 tolong curah air sejuk kt api yg membarak dlm diri aku.. aku sgt2 bertuah dpt bersame dgn 'dia'.. dpt memiliki hati 'dia'.. dpt membuka hati 'dia'.. xdpt aku nk gambarkan ngn kate2 sebenarnye.. pendek kate, 'dia' sgt2 istimewa wt aku.. x akan aku sia2kan kehidupan 'dia' walau sedetik..

klo aku nk cite psl 'dia', satu page nih x cukup.. xdapat aku nk stop jari nih dari trus menaip.. mandangkan azan zohor baru jer berkumandang, aku pon kne laa utamekn yg wajib dulu.. baru diberkati kehidupan aku.. n hopefully, kehidupan aku dan 'dia'.. till then..



p/s: awk, juz nk awk tau yg sy hargai sgt2 awk.. hargai sgt2 kehidupan awk.. hrgai sgt2 pengorbanan awk.. hrgai sgt2 kehadiran awk dlm diri sy..

Q U A R A N T I N E D ! ! !

hello guys.. it seems like almost a week since i last posted something on here.. actually, it appears that i have a lot of assignments as well as presentations that need to be done by the end of this week (supposedly!).. the time frame given (or LEFT) is d*mn not enough!! hehe.. serves me right!! tend to do everything on the last minute!! hehe.. there's a saying, "old habits die hard".. so, that 'saying' has spoken for itself and MYSELF!! hehe.. actually, there are a lot of things that need to be finished earlier.. all these things are important!! i can hardly get a good night sleep a few days back.. with the tesl night, presentation for that night, counting money, keeping the club's money (i'm the treasurer!!), settling the 'pengurusan ko-Q' matter, assignments, projects, essays, my kancil's sticker, and many more!! arghh!! i even asked Allah The Al-Mighty to make the lecturers postponing all assignments' due dates.. huhu..

but you know what? i think that my prayers were answered.. but it comes with a great sacrifice!! it appears that UPSI has eventually being quarantined.. it seems that the H1N1 virus has spread to UPSI.. and it has infected 4 students!! and they are POSITIVE-ly infected by that virus.. humanga-danga!! and there are also a lot of other students in danger of getting that virus.. even though all of them showed a little symptoms of that virus, it can still be DEADLY since we cannot say whether it is a normal fever or not.. it cannot be detected easily.. the vaksin is still yet to be found.. oh my goodness.. indirectly, this can be one of the signs that The Al-Mighty is trying to show His anger.. wallahualam..

as for that, all of us are being quarantined for a week with mutual consent starting last wednesday.. and this quarantine will last until next saturday or sunday.. i should have enough time preparing myself for the presentations as well as finishing all assignments, InsyaAllah.. and here i am, sitting in front of my laptop, online at my house, inside my lovely bedroom.. i'm in JB now.. Alhamdulillah.. at least i can have a lot of time to relax and finish everything, hopefully!! hehe.. since i'm already in JB, i will have to go to the UTM's library in order to borrow a few refferences.. i know that i can only use those refferences there.. so, i'll definitely need to go there a couple of times.. hehe.. and i can even do something there.. haha.. let just keep that for myself.. hehe.. ok then, Asar is already here.. till then~~

~ P E R F E C T ~

Suddenly, i feel like posting this lyric here.. this lyric always reminds me of 'someone'.. who is really2 important to me..

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

- 'You' know who 'you' are..

no literature class today..

hurm.. i woke up quite early this morning.. i think it's because i went to bed early last night.. guess what? i took my bath as early as 6.20am!! haha.. normally, i'll have my bath at around 6.50am.. hehe.. after that, i decided to online for a moment since it is still early.. and my literature class starts at 9am.. at about 8am today, i went to the toilet(my house in KAB) to set up my hair.. hehe.. normally it will take me about 5-10mins to do so.. haha.. 'she' always says that i always take a longer time to set up my hair than she does.. haha.. oh well, perhaps i would like my hair to be perfect.. hehe.. at about 8.15am, when i was about to leave my room, suddenly azhar(my class rep) stood up in front of my room's door.. he said that the literature class is cancel today (again??).. but i still have another class to attend.. but it's at 12pm.. so, there's still plenty of time for me to online.. haha.. so here i am.. in front of my notebook ('she' loves to call it lappy) posting new post.. hehe..

actually, i wanted to post something last night.. since i was too tired to do so, i decided to postpone this activity today.. yesterday morning i had an English for Communication 2 class.. for your information, i am well-known for loving any English classes in UPSI by my colleagues.. hehe.. that's because i'm going to be a future English teacher, InsyaAllah.. hehe.. but that class is not like what i've been expected it to be.. it appears that i've to join with the other courses (it's a must here) who are taking this paper.. and all of my batch have to be separated to one another.. huhu.. initially, i don't mind at all to get separated from my batch since it's only for this class.. but after i entered this class for the first time, suddenly i felt like dropping this subject or even join any other groups who are taking this paper.. huhu.. in this class, i've to join the 'Pengajian Malaysia' students.. and i am the only teslian in this class!! huhu.. the worse part is, all of them can't even speak a simple English as well as writing a simple sentence.. hwaaa!! their level of proficiency is very low even the lecturer in charge has to use 90% BAHASA MALAYSIA!! huhu.. they are also having BIG PROBLEMS in diffrentiating past tense n present tense!! hwaa!!! how am i going to survive in this class.. i don't think this class will help me with my English.. huhu..

if i were to survive in this class, i've to maintain my proffesionalism.. if they were to use BAHASA MALAYSIA in this class, i am going to use FULLY ENGLISH.. that's what mama tell me.. and luckily, i have 'her' by my side.. 'she' knows how to cheer me up when i'm down.. oh well, time does fly.. till then~

i'm injured!! ouch!!

the title of my post speaks for itself.. huhu.. yesterday (18th july), i represented my college (KAB) in a futsal tournament.. this tournament is considered as one of the activities that needs to be held by all the colleges in UPSI.. all colleges including mine, has been given a big amount of money to run any activities.. in fact, they HAVE TO DO SO!! since this big amount of money comes from the students, every college needs to ensure that this money needs to be spent wisely.. or else, UPSI will get them all freely.. as for me, i don't care whether this money is being spent or not as long as i have the opportunity to involved myself in every activity organized by UPSI or any of its colleges.. indirectly, i will be able to get some valuable points for myself.. these points are needed in order for me to stay at this college.. only the first year students will get the opportunity to stay here.. after that (semester 3 & above), they have to be actively participate in any activities run or organized by any colleges so that they can get the points needed..

actually, my college has decided to sponsored a few teams (from this college) to enter this tournament.. each team has to pay RM60 which i dont think many teams will join.. haha.. normally, they will give the same excuses.. the PTPTN is bla.. blaa.. blaa.. so, that's why my college decided to sponsor 8 teams.. indirectly, there will be a bigger chances of my college to win that tournament.. there's a saying, "Quality is better than quantity".. it appears that the chances that all of us had were against us.. hehe.. all the teams that participate in this tournament are damn-great!! hehe.. they do have the quality as well as the skills to become great players.. hehe.. no wonder they entered this tournament.. haha..

even though i enjoyed playing with great players, it comes with a great cost.. i got injured after playing all 3 games which in the end, we lost.. they only pick up the best 2 teams from every group.. i got a cut on my left knee after occasionally slidings and tacklings.. haha.. i was the captain for that games since our captain can't make it to those 3 games.. he had to go somewhere else.. and we were out of attackers.. and i even had to play outside of my real position.. i would like and prefer to play as a midfielder.. but i had to play as a defender.. it turned out that i can play in that position creatively.. but still, i would prefer playing as a midfielder.. our attacker has done pretty well.. it just that my defender-partner seemed to play by himself.. ignoring almost all my instructions!! what was on his mind?? did he think that he can dictate those games?? huh!! even my sister plays better that you!! i am not saying that you are the reason we lost since futsal is all about teamwork.. it just that you don't have what it takes to play as a team.. hope that you've learnt your lesson..

that's all for tonight.. i've class at 8am tomorrow.. i'll better stop now.. am looking forward to add more and more postings.. till then~~

P E N A T....

adeii.. gile btol laa jadual hari isnin.. slase ngn rabu lk 1 je klas!! huk aloh!! sakit haa pinggang aku seharian smlm.. bayangkn laa 12jam kt kampus.. huhu.. blek2 je hostel, dh nk kne bsiap utk tesl meesting.. perghh.. klo de tukang urut yg best, dh lme aku upah.. adeii.. indirectly, dpt gak laa aku rehat sket slase n rabu.. xlaa aku pnat giller.. dak2 kelas aku cam nk mintak ubah jadual hari jumaat.. nk bg hari jumaat free.. aku ok je.. sbb kelas hari jumaat de 2 je.. 2-2 tuh 1jam je.. tuh yg dak2 nih nk ubah.. xmoh usik hari jumaat kate diorg.. aku no hal... lg laa aku ske.. byk sket mse aku nk rehat2.. n nk study or wt assignment.. haha.. poyo je bunyi nyer.. haha..

hurm.. tbe2 aku cm teringat lk jb.. cm nk blek je skali skale since cuti pon cm agak best klo dpt tukar waktu kelas.. bile study jauh sket nih, baru laa trase sket jarak ngn hometown.. hurm.. lgpon jb meniggalkan kenangan yg macam2.. sbb tuh laa aku ske sgt jb even though it is not my real hometown.. aku dulu lahir kt selangor.. tp parents aku pindah jb.. kne transfer jb.. so, bermulelaa episod jb aku.. tp mmg btol laa.. sejak aku pindah jb, mcm2 yg best jd.. smpi skang.. klo nk ditaip sume bende best2 tuh kt sinih, mmg x muat laa.. hehe.. nak2 lg skang nih.. ye laa.. aku nih pon dah kire adult.. so, dh time umor cmnih, phm2 je laa pe mksd aku kn?? hehe.. bkan gatal tau?? nih naluri laa.. haha..

hurm.. skang nih tgh hujan renyai2.. letih aku smlm tbe2 ilang.. ntah npe time2 syahdu cmnih, membuatkn aku teringt kt seseorg.. seseorg yg sgt2 bermakne buat aku.. lantas aku pon misscall laa 'dia'.. hurm.. ternyate 'dia' pon cmtuh.. sian.. kepenatan settlekn mcm2 hal.. mklumlaa, 'dia' pon dh start master.. kne laa settlekn mcm2 dgn sendiri.. de 1 sms dr 'dia' yg wt aku tbe2 syahdu dgr.. n kesian kt 'dia'.. sgt2.. 'dia' lapar n blom lunch.. n 'dia' tbe2 cm harap klo laa aku de kt sisi 'dia' time tuh.. hurm.. laki mne laa yg xrse cian n syahdu klo gadis idamannye cm memerlukan laki tersebut disisinye time tuh.. hurm.. xpe.. xlme lg cuti.. n klo cuti lmbt lg skali pon, klo dpt je tarikh kelas hari jumaat ditukar, mmg aku akn cube utk jmpa 'dia' InsyaAllah..

hurm.. ok then.. jam pon dah 2.40pm lbey.. aku blom zohor lg nih.. till then.. :)

CuRi2 MaSe Yg tErLuAnG....

hurm.. pnat gak minggu pertame semester baru nih.. kelas itu laa.. kelas inilaa.. tukar kelas laa.. huhu.. assignment pon 1st class lg dh dpt.. gile gaban.. hehe.. xpe2.. name pon nk jd bakal guru bitara kn?? hehe.. nih pon curi2 mse je ol.. klo x, mmg xbpe nk sempat.. pnat sket, tdo.. pnat sket, tdo.. hehe.. tuh je laa kejenyer.. x sabar nk tunggu weekend.. dpt rehat2 sket.. hehe.. jadual sem nih xbpe nk betul.. adeii.. tp ok laa coz xde kelas mlm.. pling lewat pon jam 7pm.. xlaa pnat sgt mlm tuh.. nk rehat awl pon dpt..

baru2 nih dpt tau junior tesl de dlm 55org.. pergh.. bole tahan gak.. ramai tuh.. kalah senior aku haa.. hehe.. ngn batch aku xyah cte laa.. lg laa kalah.. haha.. mklumlaa, batch kami 13org je haa.. 1 fakulti knal btol muke kami.. kih2.. nk2 lg laki 5org nih haa.. hehe.. dak2 junior nih tgh struggle nk wt kajian jurnal.. haha.. rsekan laa cmne kitorg kne dlu.. hehe.. nk notes kitorg dulu?? xdapat laa.. hehe.. klo ktorg btau cmne nk dapatkn tuh, ok laa.. hehe.. sory laa ye, kami nih xmakan nk pujuk2 or ngade2 ngn kami.. hehe.. klo ktorg beralah ngn korg, korg xberusehe lk nnt.. cmne laa nk jd guru yg bitara kn?? hehe.. nk2 lg kite nih kne naekkan name tesl kt cmpus.. hehe.. kne laa tunjukkan kerajinan korg tuh.. klo ktorg bole wt, korg pon musti bole.. hehe..

hurm.. dlm jam 10am lbih td, hati aku cm rse xbpe nk best.. xtau laa pe yg jd.. juz rse xbpe nk best laa.. smpi lunch pon xde mood tau?? huhu.. npe ntah.. lepas je kelas, aku pon blik laa kolej kediaman tghr td.. klas ptg jam 5pm.. so byk mse lg nk rehat2 time 2.. aku pon ol laa time tuh.. cm bese, aku musti x lepaskan pluang utk view page 'dia'.. fb ngn fs skali.. tp skang kami dh gile fb laa.. hehe.. n of coz, aku view gak blog 'dia'.. hehe.. xview satu hari rse x sah.. hehe.. suke sgt bile dpt view.. hehe.. jap pon jd laa.. haha.. skali tgh2 usha fb 'dia', ternmpak laa status 'dia' ltak.. 'dia' cm hot sgt ngn students 'dia'.. pe laa dak2 nih dh wt kt 'dia' kali nih.. pakal je aku bkan cikgu kt sek 'dia' ngajar.. klo x, dh lme dh kne tengking ngn aku dak2 tuh.. haha.. rpe2nye psl nih.. aku rse laa.. sbb lpas dpt tau n lpas 'dia' cte je, bru cm rse ok blek.. mybe gk sbb dpt dgr sore 'dia' kot?? hehe.. gue kangan bangat laa gak sama 'dia'.. hehe.. jgn tny npe.. hehe..

ckp psl 'dia', hri nih agak bertuah bg 'dia'.. akhirnye surat chenta yg aku kirimkn, 'dia' jmpe gak akhirnye.. dulu cm dh kcewa gak laa 'dia' xjmpe.. siap ngadu kt aku lg.. 'dia' nk sgt2 surat tuh.. penting katenyer.. huhu.. terharu laa gak aku dgr 'dia' nk sgt2 dptkn smula surat tuh.. bersejarah laa gak surat tuh.. lpas je 'dia' bce surat tuh, secare tbe2 'dia' ternanges.. menurut 'dia', 'dia' terharu ngn ayt2 yg aku bg.. hehe.. alahai, ye ke?? smpi nanges 'dia'.. hehe.. aku ikhlas tulis sgale isi hati aku dlm tuh.. hopefully 'dia' happy sgt2 dpt jmpe blek.. n aku dh nk start tulis lg kt 'dia'.. hehe.. klo nmpak luahan hti dr segi penulisan sendiri, nmpak lg real sket sebenarnye.. nmpak trus isi hati seolah2nye.. hehe.. pe?? ingt zaman nih xbole ke nk hntar surat chenta?? hehe..

sebenarnye aku start tulis nih dlm area 11.40pm td.. tp skang dh jam 12.10am.. dh terhari jumaat laa plak.. hehe... xpe, consider mlm khamis laa gak.. hehe.. sket je terlajak.. hehe.. tbe2 byk nk type.. hehe.. sok aku kelas jam 10am.. so de laa mse nk rehat sket.. hehe..lgpon sok kelas xberat sgt.. 2-2 kelas 1 jam je stiap satu.. n jauh2.. ok je laa.. hehe.. nmpaknye smpi sini je laa dulu nukilan hati aku.. next time aku selitkan lg cte2 best.. hehe.. InsyaAllah.. hehe.. n buat 'awk', sy ingin ucapkn perkare yg bermakne sperti yg terkandung dlm surat tuh.. thanks gak sbb sudi teman msg time sy sakit perut xdpt tdo bru2 nih.. thanks for everything 'awk'.. slmt mengajar.. ingt GTF, ingt sy, ingt awk.. hehe.. till then.. chow sin chi.. ;)

L I B R A R Y...

i just finished the last class for today.. i only have 1 class on every Tuesday this semester.. it's my minor class which is the Introduction of English Literature class.. for your information, this class is well-known as the killer class by the seniors.. it appears that IT IS!! my classmates and i need to understand and learn a few short stories and poems.. when i say 'short stories', that doesn't mean that they are SHORT.. huhu.. what's more, we have to actually learn 5-6 short stories this semester!! and we even have to act according to the stories or the chapter!! Oh my goodness!! don't let me start on the poems!! arghh!!! why do i have to take 'literature' as my minor!! huhu.. it appears that starting from my seniors, we HAVE to take literature as our minor.. it's a must!! huhu..

but on the other hand, if i think again, who else will teach english literature if not us, the future english teacher? we cannot expect english literature is being taught by the Bahasa teachers as well as the morale teachers.. huhu.. i can't give up too soon in this battlefield.. i still have a long way to go.. and i still have time to prove myself to everybody.. especially 'HER'.. i need to show everybody that i'm good enough to be the future GREAT-TEACHER-FARID.. if not better, i would love to be as good as 'HER'.. so, this is it.. this is the time.. but first thing first, i need to forget 'the past'.. since 'that person' is accidentally elected to be one of my group members.. huhu..

till then.. toodle loodle guys.. ;)

holiday's over!!

akhirnye, tamat laa cuti aku.. cm x caye je cuti 2bulan dh abes.. kejap benar rsenye.. huhu.. dh laa blek2 je kt campus, klas trus start soknyer.. pergh.. xsempat nk dok rehat jap.. maklumlaa kne ngemas brg2.. nk bwk brg2 dr bilik bacaan bwh naek bilik.. huhu... slamat brg2 sume bertande.. klo x, ntah kmane laa aku letak nnt.. huhu.. n slamat laa dh nmpak cm sket walaupon agak berat sbb dh pack2.. haha..

cakap psl angkat brg nih, teringat lak satu kejadian time aku on the way nk blek campus.. huhu.. xpernah aku kne cmni.. mmg btol2 dugaan.. pnat + letih + sakit + sengal + HANGIN SATU BADAN sume de.. adeii.. btol2 menguji kesabaran laa gak.. sumernyer bermule tanggal 04 july 2009, sabtu baru2 nih.. aku dijadualkan blek UPSI pd tarikh tersebut.. coz dh beli tiket bus tarikh tu.. patut laa pg tuh aku rse cm berat je nk hati nk naek bus.. cm ala2 xsdapt hati laa.. tapi aku wt dunno je.. perasaan je laa tuh.. time tuh aku bwk bersame 2beg yg agak berat ngn satu beg laptop yg pnuh nagn brg2 len gak.. all together kirenyer 3beg yg agak berat laa.. bas aku dijadualkan gerak jam 9.30am.. mmg grak tepat mase gak laa.. dh grak tuh cm bese laa, aku msg trus mama, abah, ngn 'dia' skali.. btau yg dh grak.. mintak doakan perjalanan slmt smpi.. aku dapat single seater punye kawasan.. so, slesa laa.. brg2 pon ltak bwh kaki je.. nk dok dlm keadaan cmne pon xkesah..

bas yg aku naek tuh dijadualkan berhenti kt kl dlu.. then shah alam, baru klang.. aku gi klang dulu sbb nk amek kete kesayangan aku tuh haa.. dh lme giller xnaek.. rindu aku ngn kete aku tuh haa.. hehe.. 'dia' aku pon ckp cmtu gak.. 'dia' pon rindu nk naek keta kancil aku tu.. hehe.. maklumlaa, dulu slalu je dating2 ngn kete tuh.. tuh yg aku ngn 'dia' cm rindu ngn keta tuh kot?? haha.. kt klang tuh aku stay kt umah paksu dulu.. tp tuh cte dh sampai.. rewind sket blek peristiwa seblom sampai umah paksu..

lepas je tol bangi, tbe2 bas cam terhenjut2.. aku ingtkan driver lupe maen clutch ngn minyak.. termati2 gak laa enjin.. tp aku wt dunno je laa.. lgpon die lg berpengalaman bwk bas tuh haa.. skali lepas je tol tuh, driver bus tuh trus rapatkan bus kt tepi jln.. skali driver tuh pon kuarkan laa beberape alat2 pertukangan die.. aku pon dh rse x best laa.. mklumlaa, asal bukak je aircond, bus tuh mggigil.. trase gak kegigilan bus tuh.. btol ke ayat aku tuh?? ah, sebat laa.. dewan bahasa dan pustaka x saman aku pon.. keh3.. dan2 tepat time tuh, 'dia' call.. 'dia' btau dh sampai umah 'dia'.. tp ayah n ummi xde kt umah.. gi umah pk long.. so 'dia' call aku.. sejuk hati aku time tuh.. 'dia' cm tau2 je aku tgh de masalah.. hehe.. bgus tol laa instinct 'dia'.. bukan kali nih je, dh byk kali sebenarnye 'dia' dpt sense aku cm tbe2 perlukan 'dia' di sisi.. hehe.. aku pon ngadu laa sket kt 'dia'.. n borak2 laa mcm2.. time tuh bus jap psng aircond, jap x.. tp psang aircond pon, panas bole tahan gak.. huhu.. terik gak laa.. nk kuar, luar lg panas!! perghh.. pe laa nk jd kt Selangor nih.. adeii.. cobaan.. dah sejam lbey cmtuh, driver bus btau kt pnumpang, spe2 nk gi klang or shah alam, bek gih kl dulu.. pstuh pndai2 sendiri.. klo x, tunggu pomen dtg.. aku mule2 cadang tunggu jap laa pomen datang.. aku assume pomen x lme lg sampai laa tuh.. malas aku nk angkat beg2 yg brat giler nih..

tungu punye tungu punye tunggu, adelaa nk dekat 3jam aku dok dlm bas tuh!! cm oven yg de aircond!! xtau nk byang cmne.. pnas bole thn.. skali skale je de aircond.. tp tetap panas.. nak2 lg aku dok kt tingkap!! huhu!! last2 aku dh xbole handle.. xpelaa.. redah je laa.. aku pon naek bas len yg kebetulan dtg time tuh.. tp ke kl laa.. aku assume bus tuh gih pudu.. so aku ok je laa.. kt sane aku ingt nk naek je laa trus train dr pudu.. xkesah laa klo berdiri jap.. janji de aircond!! malang xberbau.. skali bus tuh stop bukan kt pudu!! kt bndar mne ntah!! kt tgh2 kl laa gak!! perghh!! aku nak menjerit je time tuh!! bdan dh start sengal2 n letih dok angkat 3 beg berat!! huhu.. Allah je tau cmne aku rse time tuh.. tp aku kuatkan gak laa semangat.. niat nk cepat sampai.. aku pon tnylaa brader yg de kt situ.. die btau tmpt bas ke klang de.. tp kne menapak gak laa.. jauh laa gak kne jln katenyerk.. nk naek teksi, mmg stok pusing jauh kang.. mau xnyerk.. jln dh laa tgh jamm!! kang ntah bpe aku kne ngn driver teksi tuh kang.. dh jd satu hal lg.. teksi kt KL tuh xbole pcaye sgt.. memasing cm mlas nk gne meter.. skati atuk sedare tiri diorg je nk letak harge.. meter rosak laa.. mmg harge bese laa.. ape2 je laa.. so aku pon amik keputusan jalan je laa 'jap'..

ingtkn kne jln dlm 10-15min cmtuh.. skali nk dekat 45min berjalan!! redah beberape bangunan.. panas terik.. asap kenderaan.. bunyi horn.. perghh!! mcm2 punye pencemaran laa snang ckp.. aku dh laa blom lunch lg.. cume berbekalkan sarapan sekeping roti canai ngn teh tarik je haa.. tuh pon jam 8am!! mmg nk pitam laa snang ckp time tuh!! huhu.. bahu cm dh nk tercabut.. byk kali aku terpkse letak beg2 aku jap.. sakit pinggang beb!! huhu!! lepas dh jln nk dekat 45minit ngn tulang tunjang aku cm trase nk bengkok, aku nmpak bas ke klang.. aku pon lantas gagahkan gak laa diri ke bus tuh.. smpi je kt bus, aku trus tny conductor bus tuh bpe kne bayor.. die mintak rm5.50.. aku pon bg je laa duit.. ckp byk xgne.. hati sudah panas n sgt2 letih!! lepas bayor je, dtg lg dugaan len.. aduhai!! nih pon agak menduga keimanan n kesabaran aku.. huhu.. bayangkan aku kne dok antare mat2 bangla ngn mat2 indon!! byk giler dlm bus tuh.. cm aku nek bus PATI je!! huhu.. bau lg laa xyah ckp.. mmg klo dpt aku gayut kt tangge, aku gayut je haa.. xthn giler bau dlm bus tuh!! huhu.. aircond cm xde gune je haa!! aircond dh bercampor bau tengik tahap cipan mat2 PATI tuh haa!! arghhh!!!

xpe.. aku sabar je laa.. dlm hati cepat laa smpi klang.. skali dlm tgh2 dok bersabor tuh, mat indon seblah aku nih terlentok2 tdo.. dh laa rambut cm rambut Ronald McDonald tuh haa!! tp McDonald tuh org ske.. nih rambut afro indon tuh, yg bau ntah bau longkang mne ntah, terkene bahu aku.. PERGHH!!! GELI SI*L!!!!! nk je aku tumbuk2 kpale mamat tuh!! arghh!! dah laa aku tgh HOT giller time tuh!! dh laa jauh bole thn seblom nk sampai klang!! mmg aku xbole nk dok ngn selesa!! isk!! keji sungguh mamat nih!! arghh!! brambus ko blek negare ko!! arghh!! 'kesengsaraan' aku dlm bus tuh de laa dlm sejam lbih.. last2 smpai laa kt klang.. dlm hati aku, trase best laa gak sbb dh xde mamat PATI hmpeh tuh!! arghh!!! geli btol aku teringat blek!! isk!! blom sempat aku nk usap dada tande lega, dtg lg 1 dugaan.. huhu!! mmg Allah nk uji aku btol2 hari tuh.. dh elok smpi klang, bus tuh gi drop aku kt bus stand lme!! laa.. cmne aku nk ke umah pksu!! pksu n mksu tunggu aku kt bus stand baru!! xkan laa aku nk suro diorg dtg amik aku kt situ!! perghh!! dh laa jamm giler time tuh!! pansa petang jgn cite laa.. baju ntah mcm2 bau dh lekat.. huhu.. aku tny de brother teksi kt situ cmne nk gih bus stand baru?? die kate jauh gak.. nek bus mini laa jawabnye.. naek teksi, cm diorg tak sanggup nk hantar.. mmg susah giler nk gih time tuh.. aku dgr je 'bas mini', aku trus terbayang smule mamat2 PATI td!! arghh!! x sanggup aku!! dh laa aku kepenatan giler3!!! arghh!!! skali agaknye brother teksi tuh cm kesian ngn aku.. ngn keadaan aku lg time tuh.. die pon offer laa diri.. die mintak rm20.. aku pon ok je laa.. drpd aku berhimpit dlm bus mini!! huhu!! xmoh akuh!!

so, aku pon naeklaa teksi brother tuh.. btol katenyerk.. patut laa xde teksi yg nk gih bus stand baru time2 cmtuh.. sesak giler.. n panas giler.. huhu.. diorg risau pape jd kt teksi diorg.. kang radiator rosak, abeslaa matepencarian diorg.. huhu.. aku harap xjd pape laa.. redah punye redah punye redah, ngn kepakaran brother tuh mencilok serta lalu shortcut, akhirnye aku smpi gak kt bus stand kelang yg baru.. time tuh adelaa nk dekat jam 6.10pm!! huhu.. kebetulan paksu pon bru smpai.. huhu.. cte laa ngn paksu n maksu ngn pe yg jd seharian tu.. adeii!! smpi ble2 aku ingt kejadian hr tuh!! arghh!! smpi hari nih trase lg sengal2 bdn nih.. huhu.. smpi je umah pksu, mksu suro aku mndi n solat n bsiap.. time tuh maksu sediekan makanan.. ALHAMDULILLAH!! kne je air hujan dlm shower tuh kt bdn aku, lega giler aku rase!! segar trus bdn!! cm nk stay lme2 je dlm shower tuh haa!! huhu.. siap je aku mndi n bsiap n solat, maksu ajak mkn.. huhu.. akhirnye aku dpt gak mkn!! n ternyate mksu wat lauk sedap hari tuh!! wahh!! siap paksu suro aku mkn byk2 n abeskan sume lauk tuh lk tuh!! mmg aku btol2 abeskan laa.. kenyang n best sgt time lepas tuh.. hehe.. akhirnye.. selesai sgale ujian aku hari tuh.. n mlm tuh pe lg, dok ngadu kt mama n 'dia' laa psl pe yg jd.. hehe.. xpe, dugaan.. harap2 xjd laa lg kejadian cmnih.. isk isk isk.. kne kuat sabar.. slmt laa aku nih kategori org kuat sabor.. walaupon hampir2 gak laa ilang sabor.. hehe.. ok then.. aku rse smpi sini je laa dulu nukilan kali nih.. next time hopefully de cte best2 lg yg bole di'post'kan kt sinih, InsyaAllah.. till then.. ;)


- thanks 'awk' sbb sudi dgr keluhan hati sy mlm tuh.. n sudi bg sy 'semangat'.. ;)

x sangke!! gumbiranye daku!!

hehe.. title post nih je dh nmpak best.. hehe.. xde laa byk mne pon nk ckp psl topic nih.. tp nih merupekan satu kejadian yg 1st time aku wat!! hehe.. xtau laa org len cmne.. tp aku rse jarang laa org len brani wt pe yg aku wt nih.. hehe.. sebenarnye kejadian nih blaku smalam, 29 jun 2009.. time tu, kt johor ni cuti.. xtau lk tmpt len.. hehe.. so, sume sek n pejabat bercuti.. nk tau npe?? tgk laa kalender.. hehe.. ah, dulik laa psl sempena pe pon.. yg nk cite kt sini, aku kuar laa jmpe ngn 'dia'.. bunyi cm bese je kn?? hehe.. wat pertame kalinye dlm hidup aku, aku bwak 'dia' kuar dgn care mintak trus kebenaran dr ayh(ayh 'dia').. seblom nih sume 'dia' yg mintak kebenaran nk kuar ngn aku.. tp kali ni, aku bertekad nk ubah diri.. biar ayh nmpak yg aku nih ikhlas n jujur bersame anaknye.. hehe.. ketar laa gak nk ckp.. mule2 tu call 'dia' dulu laa.. hehe.. dh ready nk ckp ngn ayh, bru mintak 'dia' past henpon kt ayh.. hehe.. dgr je sore ayh, aku trus jd gabra.. gulp!! sore bkl mertua laa katekan, InsyaAllah.. hehe.. spe x gerun weh.. hehe.. then tny laa khabar ayh, khabar ummi.. hehe.. tny ayh tgh wtpe sume tuh laa.. hehe.. pastu, smpi laa saat nk ckp.. time tu punye cuak bole laa thn.. hehe.. smpi terbahasekn diri dgn name sendiri.. cam ahli keluarge je konon2nye.. hehe.. beselaa.. tgh gabra.. hehe..

aku pon trus laa mintak kebenaran ayh utk kuar ngn anak kesayangan die.. cuak gak sebenarnye.. mklumlaa, bru sehari-2 seblom tu jmpe anak die.. nih nk jmpe lg.. hehe.. tp nk jmpe pny psl, tny laa gak.. hehe.. skali.. ayh ngn nada happy pon bg kebenaran.. cmtu je tu!! hehe.. ayh tny laa gak samade nk anak die drive ke jb ke?? aku nk kne jd gentleman laa ngn ayh.. kne laa tunjukkan yg aku nih bersungguh2 nk bsame ngn anak die.. hehe.. aku pon lantas ckp yg aku akan amek anak die trus kt umah die.. lg selamat.. n depan mate ayh je trus.. hehe.. n dpt gak aku jmpe ngn ayh n ummi.. sempat laa tny khabar.. hehe.. bg diorg rse selesa laa ngn aku.. hehe.. so, snang laa next time klo nk kuar ngn anak diorg ni.. hehe.. aku pon drive laa dr jb amek anak die kt umah nun kt pontian tu.. hehe.. bunyi cam jauh kn?? sebenarnye mmg agak jauh pontian n jb.. tp naseb aku sebagai penduduk tmn perling mmg laa sgt baek.. hehe.. seblah tmn perling nih je de 2nd link.. jap je nk smpai pontian.. hehe.. dh laa kawasan prumahan yg aku dok nih paling dekat ngn 2nd link!! hehe.. Alhamdulillah.. jarak cm lbih kurang je aku nk gi kwasan prumahan tmn U yg kt jhor ni.. juz on d way ke pontian byk kete n lori laa.. klo xde kete n lori, or jalan besar, lg kejap nk smpai umah 'dia'.. hehe..

inilaa perkare pertame yg aku wt dlm idup aku.. rse puas hati n bangge kt diri sendiri gak sebenarnye.. hehe.. bukan mudah nk tunjukkan keberanian, kesungguhan, n kejujuran cmtuh kt depan ayh n ummi 'dia'.. hehe.. tp aku berjaye gak wt.. tahniah utk diri aku sendiri!! hehe.. n ternyate tindakan aku nih amat2 membuat si 'dia' berase sgt teruja ngn diri aku.. hehe.. x slh klo nk wt cmni.. in fact, lg laa digalakkan sebenarnye.. barulaa ibubapa pasangan kite tu lg ske ngn diri kite.. korg pon patut wt cmtu gak tau?? hehe.. bile lg kn, bro?? hehe..

by the way, hari ni (30 jun 2009) aku dtg jmpe 'dia' lg.. hehe.. teman 'dia' wt medical check-up.. hehe.. teka laa ktne?? hehe.. yup!! kt pontian laa.. mne lg?? hehe.. cm aku ckp td, dekat je.. n aku de short-cut ke sne.. lg laa dekat.. hehe.. 'dia' wt utk prepare nk smbung blaja blek.. nk wt master.. hehe.. best laa gak teman 'dia'.. de satu 'feel' yg sukar nk digambarkan ngn kate2.. hehe.. biarlaa aku dan 'dia' sje yg mengetahuinye.. hehe.. adios amigos!! till then.. ;)

PIAGAM yg tertunda..

jam mnunjukkan 12.12pm.. hari ni ahad.. aku cm bese, xtau nk wtpe utk abeskn sise2 cuti aku.. adeii.. cuti lme sgt pon bkn dpe rse pape pon.. adeii.. busan laa gak klo lelame sgt cuti.. balik2 maen game, ol, bce news bola, n mcm2 lg laa.. sumer dihabeskn dlm bilik aku nih je.. hurm.. tp de gak laa aktiviti outdoor skali skale.. hehe.. pe lg, dating laa.. hehe.. tuh x buhsan laa.. haha..

klo diikutkan planning asal, aku sebenarnye dh de kt Sabah dh skang.. de program dibwh kelolaan KPM yg dipanggil 'PIAGAM'.. motif prog nih ialah utk bg pendedahan kt bakal2 guru berkenaan care kehidupan masyarakat n suku kaum Sabah terutamenye pelajar sekolah.. nk bg pendedahan betape payahnye mereka n betape perlunye mereka utk belajar.. kebanyakan guru2 skang yg dr semenanjung ingin mengelak utk di'posting' ke sne.. maklumlaa jauh dr keluarge.. n kdg2, dpt sek yg pedalaman, mmg lg susah laa nk blek hometown msing2.. tuh x kire jauh dr bandar, airport, public transportation, n kemudahan2 awam laen.. hurm.. cian pon de gak.. tp klo ditakdirkn aku kne 'posting' kt sne, aku gih je kot?? byk bende bole dpt n byk bende bole belajar.. tp klo dpt kt area johor je, lg baek laa.. hehe.. malas dh nk gih jauh2 dr hometown aku.. haha.. klo je laa.. cm aku mentioned td, klo kene 'posting' kt sne laa.. hehe..

tp PIAGAM nih ditangguhkan oleh sebab2 keselamatan.. xplak dbgtau.. tp berat hati aku mengatekan nih musti kerajaan risau psl H1N1 tuh kot?? mklumlaa, kt airport skang dh kne bjge2.. n kt sne lk, mmg tmpt tumpuan plancong.. so, nih kire cm precautious kot?? aku pon indirectly, cuak gak.. hehe.. mklumlaa, virus tu tersebar dlm sedar x sedar je.. byangkn laa tbe2 kt JB dh de 1 kes.. pergh.. dak sekolah lk tuh.. besenyerk kadar imunisasi dak2 yg bru nk ningkat remaje nih kuat.. tp tup2 dh kne.. isk isk isk.. kuase Allah.. de laa tuh sebenarnye Dia nk tunjuk kt ummat-Nya.. stiap yg berlaku tu pasti de hikmahnye.. mungkin nih dugaan n ujian dari-Nya.. klo seseorg itu x diberi ujian or dugaan, mknenyer org tu x disayangi-Nya..

hurm.. pape pon, xlme lg aku dh nk naek sem baru.. x smpai seminggu aku kt umah nih haa, InsyaAllah.. pastu dh kne start berjuang kembali.. hopefully dpt kekalkan pointer yg dasat2.. maklumlaa, nk kne gak ikut 'dia'... hehe.. maklumlaa, 'dia' nih agak brilliant orgnye.. hehe.. knelaa jd org brilliant gk cm 'dia'.. hehe.. till then.. ;)

1 more week to go!!! :(

it's about 8.25pm and i'm waiting for the Isya' Azan.. i decided to update my blog.. hurm, i just received 1 sms from my buddy, praveen.. he said that all of our previous housemates are no longer living together.. huhu!! it seems that our application for staying together has somehow been rejected!! hwaa!! i want my old housemates!! hwaaa!! it takes quite a time to get to know with each other.. i've been living with them for a semester!! and during that time, all of us have produced mutual respects among each other!! we trust one another.. even if i were to put my wallet in the middle of the house, there will be ZERO possibility for my wallet to be lost.. and that include other valuable items that all of us have.. huhu.. according to praveen, there has been a clash of name(s).. it seems that at least one of us has opted to find other housemates!! huhu..

on the other hand, this is going to be 1 opportunity for me to get to know with other people from other courses.. it's not that i don't want to get to know with others, it just that my previous housemates know how to take care of the house!! our former house was superb!! it was d*mn clean!! that's why i would prefer my old housemates.. hurm.. hopefully my new housemates will be the same or better than my previous housemates.. BETTER AS IN A POSITIVE WAY!!

ahh... just forget about that for a moment.. i'm enjoying my holiday.. and i don't want my holiday to be affected by this news.. huhu.. it seems that next week will be the last week of my holiday!! hwarghhh!!! can't believe that my 2-months-holiday is coming to the end!! hopefully i still remember all my buddies!! haha.. especially my classmates as well as my batch!! we love to hang around with each other.. although there are ups and downs during my 1st semester here knowing them, they are still my buddies.. and buddies should stick together no matter what.. unless, you're no longer interested to be my buddy/ies.. i still remember what BOTH OF YOU have done to me.. it's ok.. "what goes around, comes around".. let's see what Allah has got for YOU GUYS.. am only praying for YOUR BETTERMENT.. InsyaAllah..

ok then.. it seems that it's already time for me to perform the Isya' prayer.. till then..

SAMURA ASPIRASI 2009

baru2 nih, dr 19hb-21hb june 2009, aku telah mghadirkn diri aku ke sekolah lameku yg memberi2 beribu kisah dan nostalgia.. aku dgn rela hatinye telah mghadirkn diri utk mnjadi salah seorg fasilitator utk para pelajar tingkatan 5 yg bakal mengambil peperiksaan SPM.. kesemua fasilitator merupakan bekas pelajar samura.. tujuan kami adelah utk memberikan para pelajar tingkatan 5 samura pendedahan mengenai alam pembelajaran pengajian tinggi dan hala tuju mereka selepas tamat tingakatan 5..

hariku bermula pd 19hb jun.. aku telah bersiap2 utk gerak ke pontian.. aku bercadang utk gerak ke samura bersame2 si 'dia'.. hehe.. sebenarnye, 'dia' gak yg pelawa utk aku join skali.. hehe.. tuh gak laa antare sebab utama aku nk gi.. hehe.. ummi n ayh 'dia' pon dh bg green light utk aku teman die.. hehe.. alang2 kn?? hehe.. aku sampai ke pontian tghr jumaat tersebut.. then aku tunggu dgn penuh debaran si 'dia' utk fetch aku dr stesen bas pontian.. tunggu punye tunggu, akhirnye kelibat kereta kembara special edition muncul.. dan aku dpt lihat dgn jelas raut wajah pemandunya.. ternyata hati aku berdebar melihat si 'dia'.. dh lme xjmpe 'dia'.. hehe.. kangan bangat!! hehe.. kemudian aku ke rumah 'dia' dahulu.. nak amek barang2 kepunyaan 'dia' dulu.. semasa 'dia' sedang sibuk mengemas pakaian n brg2 keperluan yg perlu dibawa, aku smpat bertemu dgn ummi (ummi 'dia').. aku lantas mghulurkn salam dn mncium tgnnya sebagai tnde hormat.. hehe.. mklumlaa, ummi 'dia'.. kenelaa tunjukkan teladan yg bek.. hehe.. nk jd future-menantu-mithali laa katekn.. hehe.. aku pon tny laa sket khabar brite ummi.. ummi ternyata tersenyum mesra dgn kehadiran n tingkahlaku ku.. beberape minit kemudian, ayh (ayh 'dia') pula muncul.. aku pon wt perkare yg same gk kt ayh.. hehe.. sbb pon same laa.. hehe.. lepas je si 'dia' siap menyusun pakaian n brg2 ke dlm beg, aku dan 'dia' lantas memasukkan beg2 kami ke dlm kereta ummi.. ummi bg kebenaran pakai kete ummi.. hehe.. best laa gk.. hehe.. dlm perjalanan tuh xyah cite laa.. cnfirm laa aku ske giller!! dh si 'dia' de kt sebelah.. hehe.. dok borak je ngn 'dia' mnjang.. hehe.. akhirnye, dlm jam 5pm kami tiba di samura.. perkare 1st yg kami wt, kami cari fasi2 len.. ternyata rupenye2 diorg tgh menikmati hidangan ptg.. kami pon solat laa dulu.. pastuh, jln2 kt bndor muor jp.. hehe.. pe lg, dating laa!! haha.. de mase yg terluang sket, pe lg kn?? hehe.. mlm tuh, prog pon bermule.. lepas kesemua fasi telah diperkenalkn, para pelajar tingkatan 5 lantas dibahagi2kn kumpulan utk bersame2 fasi2 yg telah ditetapkn.. aku mndapat kumpulan pelajar yg ke 19..

keesokannye (20hb june), aku x join aktiviti mass gath pg2 tuh.. hehe.. bukan pe pon, pelajar2 form 5 nih de game sket.. sje biorkn diorg maen.. sbb bahagi ikot kelas.. hehe.. so, sket je laa kumpulan.. n fasi bole rehat sket.. hehe.. aku?? haha.. pe lg.. teman si 'dia' jln2 pg tuh.. bersiar2 kt bandor muor.. lepas subuh lg dh kuar tau?? hehe.. lme sket spend mse ngn 'dia'.. hehe.. sebenarnye cian kt 'dia'.. mlm 19hb tuh die xdpt tdo.. kne gigit nyamuk.. hmpeh tol nyamuk2 tuh.. gigit darling aku lk tuh!! mmg nk kne gigit blek ngn aku jwbnye nyamuk2 tu!! abes tgn n muke 'dia' de bintik merah2.. huhu.. pastuh dlm area 8.45am, aktiviti ldk cm bese.. smpilaa wktu lunch.. hehe.. guess wut?? aku xmkn kt dm.. hehe.. mkn luar.. ngn spe lg kn?? hehe.. tgh2 kuar, ktorg kne lak beli sket brg.. so, kne laa extend sket mse dating tuh.. haha.. spe suro kitorg gi kn?? hehe.. naseb laa.. hehe.. brg2 tuh utk games time riadah ptg tuh.. fasi xjoin.. dak2 form 5 nih je yg maen.. hehe.. fasi2 facilitate je.. hehe.. smpilaa jam 6.30pm lbeh cmtuh.. pstuh, dinner.. tp cm bese, aku dinner ngn 'dia' laa kt luar.. hehe.. bile lg nk spend mse same2 kn?? hehe.. then 8.45 aktiviti mass gath lg.. ade laa sket dak2 form 5 nih kne basuh.. hehe.. pendek cte, abes prog dlm 12.30am cmtuh.. ngntuk sket laa.. tp, tuh x bermkne aku xbole nk round2 ngn 'dia' jp mlm2.. hehe.. cntik gak bndor muor time mlm2.. hehe.. bercahaye laa gak.. tp xbole lme sgt.. kng aspuri kne kunci lk.. xdpt 'dia' nk msuk.. hehe.. so, dlm area 1.15am tuh kami pon balik semula ke hostel.. tdo laa, pe lg?? sok de aktiviti len lk..

next day lak (21hb jun), last day utk prog nih.. cepat btol mse berlalu.. sedor2 dh last day.. huhu.. x puas lk rasenyerk.. tp nk wt cmne kn?? lgpon dak2 form 5 nih pon perlu rehat byk.. diorg nk exam n sekolah.. hehe.. klo next time wt awl sket n time cuti, lme laa sket aktiviti bole wt kot?? hehe.. prog abes dlm jam 12.30pm cmtuh.. time nih laa sesi maaf2an n amek gmbar.. aku sempat gak bg kata2 semangat pd anak2 buah aku.. bg sket nasehat sumer laa.. pastuh, de sorg dak form 5 nih dtg pd aku mintak tips blaja eng care mudah.. aku pon bg laa gammar rules yg aku pakai slame nih.. rules yg diterbitkn oleh abah aku sendiri.. ternyate sgt2 membantu aku slame nih.. aku pon still pakai smpai skang.. n bakal pakai lg time klo aku dh bergelar guru yg sebenar, InsyaAllah.. lepas zohor, aku dan 'dia' pon memulakan perjalanan pulang ke pontian.. tp seblom tuh, kitorg jln2 kt melaka jap.. hehe.. sje ronda2.. bile lg nk jln2 ngn die je kn?? jln jauh lk tuh.. hehe.. mne de org yg dok johor, gih dating kt melaka kn?? hehe.. ade laa gak.. tp kire cm jarang2 laa.. hehe.. tp kitorg dh laa.. hehe.. cian gak kt 'dia' sebenarnye.. die keletihan sket.. tp xpe, aku mmg suro 'dia' tido spanjang pjalanan pulang.. nk bg 'dia' rehat cukop2.. soknye 'dia' dh nk kne ngajar.. tuh yg nk bg 'dia' btol2 rehat..

spanjang 3hari nih, aku sgt2 enjoy.. dpt spend mase ngn gf, n dpt bg semangat kt students2 yg bakal menempuhi spm n mse depan yg lg mencabar.. klo ditakdirkn dpt gi prog nih lg, mybe aku join lg kot?? tu pon klo 'dia' join skali laa.. hehe.. semangat lg kuat klo 'dia' de disamping.. hehe.. till then.. ;)

Time Never Goes Back

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I’m confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?

Teacher : (Silent for few second, then he answer) Well, it’s a pretty hard and easy question.

Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don’t you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then… wait for me… (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later…

Student : I’m back.

Teacher : Em, well I don’t see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn’t pick it up. But I didn’t realize that I’m at the end of the field, and I hadn’t picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn’t go back.

Teacher : That’s what happened in real life. What is the message of this story?

* Grass - is people around you

* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you

* Grass Field - is time

* In looking for your soulmate, please don’t always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you’ll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don’t waste time! ~There Can Be Only One~

Good morning everybody!! ;)

With the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful...

first and for most, i’m thankful that i'm able to persue my studies in UPSI.. thanks to the people who have been encouraging me all this while.. i had to make 1 important decision in my life.. and luckily, i managed to pick the better and the brighter decision.. but there’s a saying.. “Great victory comes with great sacrifice”.. i have to leave all my good friends and lecturers in order to achieve my goals.. but that doesn’t mean that i abandoned them.. this is for my own future.. MSU will always be in my heart.. you’ve shown me the meaning of “HARDWORKING”.. and i’ve learnt the meaning of “TRUE FRIENDS”.. even though it took me about 1 and a half year to notice who my true friends really are, i’m still thankful to Allah The Almighty that He gave me the courage to deal with ‘those matters’.. what past is past.. i’ve my own living now.. i’ve my own goals to be achieved.. and that goals require me to work extra-ordinary-hard.. i’ve achieved a few ‘goals’.. and now, i’m focussing on the bigger and larger GOALS!! although it is still a long journey, i’ll always try to be on the right path.. hopefully it can take me there faster.. although there’s no such thing as short cut in finding success.. time does fly.. i can’t believe that i’ve been here for a semester.. and i’ve met a lot of people here.. there are some good people as well as not-so-good-people.. i’ve learnt 1 valuable lesson.. sometimes people will do anything just to satisfy themselves.. even if it requires others to be fooled around.. it’s funny that people can actually change.. the person/people whom we trust, can actually stab us without noticing!! haha.. but i don’t mind.. like i said, these people will do everything just to satisfy their f*cking needs!! oh, well.. what past is past.. i don’t have any grudges anymore.. let them be in their own world.. haha.. what comes around, goes around.. so, just wait for YOUR TURN!! haha..

Harga sebuah kejujuran...

Kejujuran.. satu ungkapan yg sgt2 perlu n sgt2 penting x kire utk diri sendiri mahupun kpd org laen.. dlm kehidupan seharian, dlm perhubungan seharian, sumernye perlu utk diri kite bersikap jujur.. persoalannye, mampukah utk kite bersikap jujur? kdg kala bukan mudah utk kite bersikap jujur kpd satu sama lain.. nak2 lg klo perkare tuh bole mgguris hati org laen.. kejujuran nih memerlukan seseorg itu benar2 berani.. berani kerana benar.. kejujuran merupakan suatu nilai yg sgt murni.. nilai yg sgt indah.. bukan sume org ade keberanian utk bersikap jujur.. itulah nilai yg sukar utk ditemui di kala ini..

ade pepatah islam yg mengatakan.. bersikap jujur(berkata2 yg benar) lah walaupun ia nya menyakitkan.. mksd pepatah ni menghendaki kite utk berlaku jujur sesama insan walaupun kejujuran itu bole mengguris hati sendiri mahupun org lain.. tp, xbermakne klo kejujuran yg menyakitkn itu, xdpt diterime oleh org lain.. sesetengah hamba Allah akan berasa sgt lega di atas kejujuran yg kite tunjukkan itu.. pokoknye, jgn biarkan kejujuran kite itu hilang jauh di sebalik hati kite.. Allah sentiase bersame hamba2-Nya yg benar.. mungkin dgn doa dan tawakkal, segale pe yg ingin kite ungkapkn, dpt diterime org laen InsyaAllah.. pendek kate, bersikaplah jujur jika diri kita mahukan pihak laen utk berlaku jujur terhadap diri kita.. renung2kan dan selamat beramal..



- aku pnah menangis kegembiraan n bangge sbb de 'seseorg' insan nih sudi berlaku jujur ngn diriku.. Alhamdulillah.. bukan mudah utk berjumpe dgn 'insan' yg cmnih.. Alhamdulillah.. syukran ya Allah kerana Kau telah mempertemukan hamba-Mu ini dgn 'seseorg' yg sedemikian.. syukran ya Allah.. :)

hari ini dlm sejarah hidupku..

siape sangke tarikh hari nih, 11 jun 2009 merupekan antare detik yg sgt bersejarah buat diriku.. mybe tarikh ni nmpak normal pd org len.. tp tidak pd diriku ini.. tarikh ni merupekan titik dimane satu pembaharuan telah berlaku pd aku selame setahun!! pembaharuan yg pd mse dulu aku xsngke akan berlaku.. sumer yg berlaku mmg laa dgn ketentuan Yg Maha Esa.. segale perjalanan hidupku seperti telah ditentukan oleh-Nya.. sehinggelah pertemuanku dgn seseorg hamba Allah yg sudi hadir utk memberikan ku sinar harapan serta pelangi indah.. bukan mudah utk aku berjmpe dan bersame dgn si 'dia' ini.. pelbagai onak yg terpakse aku tempuhi.. klo tulis novel, rse2nye bole meletup kisah aku nih.. perjalanan utk aku berjumpe dengan 'nya'.. xperlulaa aku coretkn pe yg telah berlaku sepanjang perjalanan ku seblom nih.. kot2 de rezeki, aku wat laa novel.. korg bace laa nnt.. dpt sket komisen.. hehe..

berbalik pd pembaharuan yg aku mksdkn, aku sgt2 bersyukur kerana aku telah dipertemukn dgn seseorg yg cukup sempurna, cukup indah, ckup segale2nye.. aku rse sgt2 laa bertuah.. sukar nk ckp cmne.. org len mybe laen carenye.. begitu gak aku.. aku pon lain gak.. begitu gak si 'dia'.. hadirnye 'dia' dlm hidupku telah mengubah segale2 nye.. drpd kehidupanku yg makin suram dan malap, kpd kehidupan yg indah n riang.. 'dia' hadir di kala aku rasakan bhw dunia ini seakan begitu kejam terhadapku.. 'dia' hadir di kala aku merasakn bhw aku telah kehilangan segala2nye.. 'dia' hadir di kala aku merasakan bhw tiada sbb utk aku berada di muka bumi ini.. sememangnye aku silap.. 'dia' telah mengajarknku bhw kehidupan ini mmg pnuh dgn ranjau.. kite perlu utk meneruskn jua kehidupan.. xkire pe yg berlaku, mesti ade hikmahnye.. Allah sengaje memberikan kite hujan lebat di kala kite merasakan bahawa sang mentari menyinari hidup kita.. kite mungkin merasakan kehilangan mentari itu.. tp kite lupe.. Allah berikan hujan yg lebat agar kite dpt melihat sang pelangi..

hadirnya diri 'nya' membuatkn aku kmbali berdiri dgn teguh.. dgn gah!! 'dia' merupekan pemberi semangat buatku.. pemberi keyakinan padaku.. saat aku rasakn seperti aku sudah tidak punye ape2, 'dia' hadir utk mengembalikan keyakinan diriku.. keyakinan yg jauh lebih hebat dr satu masa dahulu!! tanggal 11 jun ini merupakan tarikh bersejarah dimana diriku telah dipertemukan dgn seseorh insan yg benar2 mghargai diriku.. seorg insan yg bisa membuat diriku ceria, semangat, dan mcm2 lg tanpa diri 'nya' melakukan ape2 yg sgt drastik!! ntah mengape, ckup sje dgn senyuman 'nya' mahupun suara dan gelak tawa 'nya' sje dh membuatkn diriku kembali bertenaga di saat aku lemah.. ternyate kehadiran 'nya' tepat pd msenye.. walaupun lmbt utk aku sedar akan kehadiran 'nya'.. betapa bodohnya diriku ini.. tp aku bersyukur kerana Allah masih memberikan daku peluang utk bersama 'nya'.. aku benar2 bersyukur dgn ape yg berlaku.. akulah lelaki yg benar2 bertuah dimuka bumi Allah ini!! bukan mudah utk berjumpa dgn 'bidadari syurga' yg sudi menyinari diri kite.. 'bidadari' yg 'BENAR2 BIDADARI'!!

aku telah bertemu dgn diri 'nya' hari ini.. aku telah meluangkn mse dengan diri 'nya' pd tarikh yg amat2 bermakne pd diriku.. mse benar2 mncemburui diriku td.. aku rasekn mse bergerak dgn bgitu pntas!! cm sje je xnk bg pluang pd aku lme sket.. tp x kesah laa.. asalkn dpt gak aku bertemu dgn 'nya'.. dpt aku luangkn mse dgn 'nya'.. pd tarikh hari ini, 11 jun 2009.. ckup setahun hubungan istimewaku bersame diri 'nya'.. stiap detik aku lalui bersama 'nya' amat berharge n bermakne buat diriku.. aku berdoa agar segala kebahagiaan yg sedang aku kecapi ini berkekalan smpi bila2 InsyaAllah.. aku bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi di atas ketentuan yg telah dilaksanakan-Nya.. setiap ape jua perkare yg berlaku ade hikmahnye.. syukran ya Allah!!

terime kasih 'awk'.. terime kasih di ats pe yg 'awk' beri pd sy.. sgale jase 'awk' xakn sy lupekan.. sy doakan kebahagiaan n kesejahteraan kita bersame.. setiap waktu kita bersama merupakan saat2 yg indah buat diri sy.. semoga hubungan kita berkekalan, InsyaAllah.. terima kasih, 'awk'...

One of the happiest day of my life!! =)

sungguh x sangke n sgt2 x sangke bile ade seseorg yg kite anggap sgt penting n bermakne pd diri kite sanggup dtg melihat kite dr jauh hanya utk memastikan keadaan kite.. perkare n perbuatan yg kite sendiri x jangke dr seseorg yg amat2 penting buat kite berlaku.. inilah pe yg terjadi pd diriku baru2 nih, atau dgn lbih tepat lg, pd tanggal 8 Jun 2009!! sehari seblom tuh, aku trase diri ini sgt2 down.. xtau ape sbb n punca.. cm sume serba xkene.. hati aku gundah gelana tnpa sebab.. cm nk tensen.. cm nk migrain.. cm nk mengamuk pon ade.. huhu.. cm org gile je bunyi nyerk.. tp tuh laa hakikatnye.. aku xtau pe yg aku perlu wt utk bg aku tenang sket.. cm aku ckp, sumer serba xkene.. last2, aku ambil keputusan utk mengadu pd seseorg yg aku rse 'dia' bole memberi aku 'ubt' utk pe yg aku rse nih.. mlm tsebut(7 Jun 2009) 'dia' sudi meluangkn mse mendengar luahan hati aku melalui SMS.. 'dia' tampak risau dgn keadaan aku.. trase bersalah gak diriku ini sbb wt 'dia' rse cmtuh.. 'dia' nk wt pape keje pon xjd sbb risau dok pikirkn keadaan aku.. isk isk isk.. akhirnye mlm tuh aku redha sedikit pe yg ak rse.. at least dpt laa aku cube utk melelapkn mate..

esoknye (8 Jun 2009), 'dia' spt bese ber'SMS' ngn aku.. tny pape psl diri aku, keadaan aku, dan mcm2 lg.. tbe2 'dia' mengambil keputusan yg sgt membuatkn aku terharu gile2!! 'dia' mengambil keputusan on d spot utk gi melawat aku utk bg aku 'dos-dos ubt' yg sepatutnye aku perlukan.. ternyata keputusan 'dia' wat aku terpinga2 sebentar.. hati aku bertanye pd diri sendiri.. "betul ke pe yg aku bace kt msg nih?".. lantas aku pon mgambil keputusan utk call 'dia'.. hanye nk pastikn yg aku nih x slh tgk SMS t'sebut.. mmg betul!! 'dia' dh tgh bersiap2 nk grak jmpe aku!! tbe2 aku sgt2 gumbira!! aku xtau laa nk ekspress cmne pe yg aku rse time tuh.. satu perbuatan yg jrg2 org len wat.. ade gak laa org len wat, tp jarang!! n ini yg pertame kali berlaku pd diri aku!! even best-buddies-forever aku pon xpnah wt cm 'dia' wt.. 'dia' sanggup dtg dr jauh (jauh laa gk kirenyer) semate2 nk pastikn yg aku dh btol2 ok.. mmg 'dia' sgt2 risau tentang keadaan aku.. aku xtau nk kate pe time tuh.. mmg kehadiran 'dia' pd hari tersebut benar2 membuat aku rase sgt2 dihargai n disayangi 'dia'.. indirectly, aku de trase sket bersalah laa sbb wt 'dia' rse cmtuh.. wat 'dia' sgt2 risau.. hari tuh aku layan segale ape kehendak 'dia'.. aku sgt2 happy time tuh.. aku cite mcm2, gelak2, usik2 'dia'.. mcm2 laa yg kami wt bersame kirenyerk.. dh laa smpai mlm lk tuh 'dia' spend mse kt aku.. huhu.. mlm bru 'dia' pulang ke rumah.. xlaa mlm sgt.. tp kire mmg dh sgt gelap laa jln time2 cmtuh..

pape pon, tindakan 'dia' sgt2 membuat aku terharu.. xpernah slame nih aku dpt perhatian sedemikian rupa dr seseorg yg bukan dr darah daging sendiri.. aku sgt2 berterima kasih pd 'dia' atas pe yg 'dia' telah lakukan.. aku sedar bahawa 'dia' sgt2 mengambil berat pd ku.. aku benar2 penting utk 'dia'.. 'dia' telah membuktikan pd diriku yg 'dia' benar2 mengangkat diriku ini tinggi.. perlaksanaan 'dia' ini gak telah mengajar aku bhw 'cinta xperlu diungkap dgn kate2, tp ckup ngn perbuatan...'.. itulah diri 'dia'.. 'dia' bukan sengaje xnak beri or ckp pape pd aku.. 'dia' hanye melakukan sedemikian supaye ungkapan yg aku tunggu2 itu mnjadi sgt2 bermakne.. lbih drpd pe yg aku rasekan slame ini.. aku bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi kerane telah mempertemukan aku dgn seseorg yg sgt2 sempurna n sgt2 istimewa.. aku berjanji akan mnjage diri 'nya' slagi mne aku termampu..

terime kasih 'awk'.. terime kasih di atas pe yg 'awk' dh bg kt sy..

it hurts..

it hurts to see our best friend(s) in deep trouble or in big problems.. it hurts to see our parents in the same situation.. it hurts to see when our loved one in the same situation.. normally we'll try our best to solve their problems or even to comfort them.. but when it happens to ourselves, who will be there for us?? sometimes, when we are in need of someone, and that someone is not there or even do not bother to be there, it will eventually hurt even more!! huhu.. and worse, if something that we didn't expect it to happen in front of us or behind us happens right in front of our nose, what would it feel like?? i feel sorry for myself or on behalf of anybody else.. this is life.. it will hurt us in order to teach us.. sometimes, life can be very cruel.. especially, when we are alone.. when we are being abandoned, when we are left..


it hurts...

Cuti?? huhu.. best ke x best??

Cuti.. dgr je perkataan nih, musti rse cm best je dgr.. tp ilang rse best tuh klo dh cuti tlalu lme sgt.. smpi xtau nk wtpe.. nk jln2, xkan laa nk slalu kn?? hurm.. so, nk wt cmne kn?? dok umah je laa jwbnyerk.. hehe.. nk keje xbole lak.. sbb kang musti tganggu ngn aktiviti yg bakal dilakukan nnt.. mau x nye.. bulan lepas je dh bpe lme dok kt kl ngn cameron.. balek2 je jb, de aktiviti len lak.. keh keh keh.. tuh x kire jd full-time-unpaid-driver.. haha.. tp xpe, yg penting ikhlas.. bak kate mama, "Mama dulu ngandungkn Farid 9bulan, sakit2 prut mama kne tendang n siku ngn farid time dlm perut, sumer tuh mama x cas sesen pon...".. power kn ayt?? confirm xbole lwn.. hehe.. sebenarnye xtau nk wtpe cuti2 nih.. tibe2 tergerak nak type blog nih.. walaupon xde sgt idea, cmnih pon jd laa.. hehe.. hurm.. plik kn tgk title posting yg 2nd nih?? dh xtau sgt nk letak pe, letak je laa.. hehe.. hurm.. ok then.. blom de mood nk cte2 lg.. still baru.. byk nk letak cte2 kt sinih.. pape yg berlaku kt diri nih.. til then.. de hal sket.. haha..

Sunday, oh Sunday!!

Hi and Assalamualaikum wbt to whoever tends to view my blog as well as my posting(s).. Seems like this is the first posting that i've created.. Initially, i don't have any idea of what should i do with this blogging thing.. But you know what? I still don't have any idea!! Haha.. Actually, I've done this blogging thing before.. but that is on my Friendster Blog.. I couldn't remember when was the last time I updated that blog.. Haha.. I don't have many followers there (so does this one!!).. Hope I'll get many here.. Hehe.. There's not much to be said here since this is only the introduction.. The reason I created this blog is because of 'someone'.. That 'someone' asked me whether I have a blog? I said that I only have it on my Friendster.. That 'someone' asked me to create one here.. Hehe.. So, here it is.. Haha.. To be franked, I've always wanted to create a blogspot.. A blogspot where everybody can see or give comment(s).. But then again, you DO NEED TO HAVE THIS BLOGSPOT ACCOUNT in order for you to leave your comment(s).. Hehe.. Not bad for 'a first-timer'.. I'll continue writing next time!! Bye-bye for now!! ;)